Hopeless

Sky and Holder spend the day together at his house. Sky wants to find out about Hope, figuring she is some ex-girlfriend. When they are walking into Holder’s house, Sky casually asks about Hope. Holder’s reaction is immediate and alarmed. He blames the alcohol and says he has never known anyone named Hope. They kiss, and Sky feels her entire body respond. She wonders whether Holder knows she is a virgin.

The two move to Holder’s bedroom. They begin to make out, Sky “hanging on every single word [Holder’s] saying, not wanting to miss a single second of whatever it is he is doing” (230-31). She feels the hardness in his jeans. Sky twists her body beneath his and, as they continue to kiss, she begins to whimper quietly. Holder hesitates, and Sky insists she knows what she is doing and wants to be here. She says, “This is not me saying yes. This is me saying please” (235). They quickly shed clothes and then, skin to skin, Sky feels their closeness and begins to tremble. Then, out of nowhere, a voice in her head starts to count. She closes her eyes and then starts to cry and shake.