Felix Ever After

Felix emails his mom a list of questions about who did the gallery wall, whether he only likes Declan because it’s nice to be desired, how Ezra would react to all this, and more. He asks, “What the hell is my identity?” and “Why did you leave? Did you stop loving me, too?” (178-79).

Felix knows is he is not a girl, but beyond that he remains uncertain about his identity. While googling trans terminology, he happens on a gender identity discussion group at the LGBT Center that’s happening in three hours. He decides to go. The discussion leader, Bex, has a tag that says they/them on it; Felix has considered a nonbinary identity before but has always been unsure if he can claim the identity because there are times when he knows he is a boy. The other four participants in the group are much older. Felix has no plan to speak up. They discuss whether gender roles should be completely destroyed or if they can be affirming; Tom, who Felix feels is a leader in the group, says, “There isn’t much point to passing judgment on our community. We already get enough judgment from others” (184).